Joseph
July 7, 2019

Joseph

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Passage: Genesis 27

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  1. Lisa Phillips

    Hearing this message was an answer to prayer. I’ve been writing my memoir for over three years, but it has been such a struggle. There has been so many obstacles and barriers that have gotten in the way, so many interruptions, family issues, medical setbacks and now caring for my dad, but in the back of my mind, I’ve struggled with confidence. With a terrible home life growing up with a mentally ill mother, that ultimately destroyed three generations of mother’s and daughters, it shattered my self-confidence that I can write that people will read. In the midst of that dysfunction and hostile environment, God gave me a passion for writing. And I have always believed He put a dream in my heart to use my writing to tell my story. That awareness came to me when I was 16, but I never told anyone. I thought if the family knew they would think it was silly or unimportant.

    Now, 41 years later, I’m writing it, but have been beset with barriers, (mindset issues and a shredded confidence), but again, in the last year new struggles, new challenges have hit and I’ve prayed and prayed for direction, whether I should stop writing. Do it later, or quit writing altogether. It’s hard to write when others don’t see the point, or haven’t walked where you have walked. I became very discouraged. But God gave me a word of encouragement – words that said to keep going. To not give up. To not stop. And so I kept going. But every few months it seems another barrier raises it’s head and I struggle again with the same issue – should I even be writing this? I tell God that I just don’t have what it takes to make this story worthy of reading. Then, it happened again this week. I felt like I can’t overcome another setback and more discouragement that pushes this book further down the road. And I almost boxed all my research material, all my manuscripts up, many years of journals and put them away.
    When I prayed in all those times before, God gave me His answer to keep going. So I did. But this week I hit rock bottom. And I did exactly what Pastor Craig said we shouldn’t do. I disqualified myself. I asked God again, “Do you still want me to write this book? I don’t have the mental energy. I’m worn. Frustrated. Losing patience due to all the setbacks. If you want me to write this book, You’ll have to supply the words, because I’m feeling out of words right now.” And then this morning, I heard these words from Pastor Craig:

    “Your flaws, failures, lack of talent or confidence are no barrier to God for choosing and using you for His kingdom.” I just cried. I felt a ‘ping’ go off inside me and I knew I was meant to hear those words. I have always been willing, but the struggle to finish has been so agonizingly slow. It feels as if Satan is stealing my words, preventing me from making progress. I’ve written four chapters in three years with many more to go. The distractions/obstacles/family crisis’ continue. But I will remain willing. Lean into the Lord and I’ll remind myself of Joseph. It took years for him to see the full measure of his struggles to see its purpose. I believe I was meant to hear these encouraging words today. Thank you!

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